Some of us are not meant to be dreamers

As a child you always dream of doing something. Something better than your ancestors something that puts you at the top of hierarchy earns you respect and you get out of this average pothole. But, some of us are just not meant to be anywhere Some of us are just bound to stay wherever they are struggling, crushing themselves day by day minute by minute. No matter how good of an idea we have no matter how intelligent we are no matter how great is the execution we will eventually end up where we started off. You think buying a land would solve put you years ahead but that land could turn out to be a nightmare.

You do all possible researches get your name in govt records but later find out you have been lied to the land is doomed to go nowhere. You start several businesses pour your hard earned money into it everytime better planning then last, more careful, more disciplined, more structured but at the end of the day you end up losing everything and go back to being zero. Every moment you will hate yourself. You could have lived a far more comfortable life but your poor decision to be something extra keeps pushing you to ground zero.

Sometimes you start to feel as if the entire universe wants you to fail. It doesn’t want you to go anywhere. Few lines that you were taught keeps repeating in your head “A man must put in the work and not worry about the result”. But, when everything goes south and your life goes into poverty these lines barely make sense. You start questioning yourself blaming yourself for everything that is wrong. Everyone around you calls you a loser, no one thinks you are worth anything you are just a arrogant anti social mentally retarded person to them. Some say what others think shouldn’t matter but what i see in the mirror everyday should matter? A tired helpless man. who has lost all hopes to succeed his dreams. Everything that he did is zero. Nothing makes sense.

People who live on loans lecture this man because he can’t even live on loans. He is not even credit worthy. No savings, no future planning, just a man with countless failures in his court. what should such a man do? what worth is such a man? He shouldn’t be a dreamer. He should be just a normal guy who focus on investing in FDs and RDs, save money and live a mediocre life like 99.9% others. He should despise himself for thinking out of ordinary. He should hate himself for even trying.